Monday, September 29, 2014

My Favorite Things this Fall

Favorite things this Fall

Starbucks Blonde Roast coffee..  I have been brewing coffee at home lately instead of my every morning drive thru stop.. The Blonde roast with vanilla soy creamer is my favorite. Happy National Coffee Day!

Blonde Roast

That we are still rocking 80 degree weather right now... YES please!! I am hanging on to the warmer temps for as long as I possibly can. I still have sandals on my feet. Which is way better than last Monday when it was to cold for that.

My new phone case From Mab Graves.. I love twisted fairy tails. Alice is my all time favorite and this girl hands down has the best artwork when it comes to Alice and twisted fairy tails. She has an Etsy store that I droll over.   This is the phone case I got - but for Samsung.  She's actually in the "Runaway's" section of Mab's collection, but since most phone cases out there are for iphone (whats with that? Samsung is a way better phone) I chose her.

A Stormcloud of Jellyfish - iPhone 4 or 4S cell phone case cover - by Mab Graves

I am in love with her Mad Hatter and Cheshire Cat print - I can "see" them hanging in my office.

That my favorite shows have returned. Scandal last week was beyond awesome. I did not think this would ever happen but Mellie has become my favorite. Best quote of the entire episode was "And FYI when you go sticking your hand in my panties, another thing I just don't do any more is wax. Its all 1976 down there."   I laughed for 10 minutes then backed up and watched it again.

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Friday, September 26, 2014

Outta Words this Year

Seems both like just yesterday and forever ago, how is that possible? Its been 5 years - and still takes my breath away.

Beam Me Up by P!nk on Grooveshark

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Thursday, September 25, 2014

Shit I don't Understand

Honestly this week I am not understanding the whole "you owe me" mentality running around the blogging world this week.  Another big(ish) blogger has ended her marriage and the interweb forums and fans are all picking her apart for an explanation. Sure EVERYONE IS curious - its human nature. A phrase that got me though was "She owes us, shes shared everything else about that relationship publicly." Hmm aren't you just a special little snowflake , no one OWES you jack shit.

So what shes shared things publicly, of her choosing. So what you heard the story of how they got together. That does not make her - or them public domain. Stop slamming her.

What does anyone owe anyone really??  Honestly not freaking much.  You owe your partner and children dignity. Tossing out the hows, and why's of the break down of a marriage obliterates that dignity. That information is NOT public domain EVER.  

Being curious is normal. Badgering, demanding then bashing the person for not disclosing that information is NOT. Get a grip and think about how YOU would want to be treated if it was YOU going through a divorce in a semi public environment..

Problem (feat. Iggy Azalea) by Ariana Grande on Grooveshark

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Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Still Busted up and Broken

Yep, yesterday's work out was to much. I ended the day on an ice pack and pain pills watching The Voice then the Black List and live tweeting them both... DAMNIT. Really tired of this. It gets very old and frustrating to move and suddenly have your back go out and pain hit so bad you end up on your knees trying to catch your breath.

Going to have to go way back to basics and just start with walking in the evenings until this back issue clears up. I just miss my yoga, kick boxing and lifting work outs dangit! I had to drop out of a 12 week challenge I was doing and that bums me out as well. One day at a time right..

This has just been a very slow process and I am stressed out in a big way. Generally when I am stressed I hit the workouts, but what do you do when the workouts hit back and your in to much pain to do them?? This is what I am trying to figure out. I have another appointment tomorrow and will ask my Doctor then what I can do, how to ease back in and what the best approach to take is...

When I am able to I have been walking laps around the parking lot at my office during breaks - this morning I saw this little fellow.. Checking me out as I was checking him out.. He sat there for a good 10 minutes before turning around, looking back at me and flying off..

Speaking of taking it back to basics - my first day of Fall (bleck) outfit. Even went old school with the Jackie O pearls... Everyones all oohhhh Fall, boots, sweaters, pumpkin spice and I am over here going damn I have to put on real shoes, like with socks and everything...

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Monday, September 22, 2014

Welcome Back to the 5 am Club and a Weekend Wrap Up

Workouts have pretty much been non existent since Spring. I have been dealing with chronic low back pain that even made walking a nightmare.The cause? That blasted memory foam bed! I loved it when we first got it, it was also the dead on winter. This summer when the temps and humidity went through the roof, any support that mattress had went to hell. Apparently this is a common issue for people.  It just didn't pop up on my internet searches when I researched that damn memory foam mattress!

Since body heat is what the mattress interacts with in warmer climates they get way to soft and your pretty much sleeping on melted marshmallow. Add in the fact that when you are sleeping so are any of your natural "ouch that hurt" defenses, stir and you have me in severe pain all summer.

I finally gave in and went to my Chiropractor and bought a new mattress. I'm still having twitches of pain here and there but nothing like the previous 3 months. So I set the alarm this morning for 5 am and gave yoga a shot. Talk about starting over from square -1. Holy unflexable limbs batman. Its gonna take a while LOL. The stretching felt divine however and as long as I didn't just put myself in traction - I am looking forward to yoga again Wednesday morning. Hopefully I can quickly work back into lifting.

I am also looking forward to NOT living at the chiropractor's office almost daily for the last 2 weeks. I have improved to the point I am have been able to stretch my appointments to 3 or 4 days in between. I had been going daily then every other day.

This past weekend was a pretty normal weekend, up Saturday morning and at the Chiropractors office, a quick stop at Starbucks, then to my office for a bit to catch up on paperwork in the peace and quiet that is an empty office. Had the AC been on in the building I may have stayed all afternoon! It however wasn't and it started to get stuffy in there after about an hour so I ditched the office and headed to the nail salon. I had been putting that off for a bit to long so I wanted to get that accomplished over the weekend.

Sunday was the norm clean house do laundry and catch up on TV waiting for the new seasons of my shows to start that is pretty much the ONLY thing I like about Fall! I am loving the new show Madam Secretary. Tonight The Black List is back which is required watching in my house. Since the grandbaby is living with us and that is not toddler approved, I am really thrilled to have the TV and Uverse in my bedroom now, add the new bed and I never want to leave it! To bad I have to go be productive!

Have a great Monday!

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Friday, September 19, 2014

The Shit that Made Me Laugh this Week

These will only make sense if you watch Orange is the New Black

Of course there is some Vader..

This didn't make me laugh so much, I just loved it.

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Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Wednesday Confessional

The ragey chapter....

Seasonal "bucket lists" make me ragey. A bucket list is supposed to be the major things you want to accomplish before you pass on. I am pretty fucking sure "wear boots and layers while drinking a pumpkin spice latte isn't the the biggest you can dream.  If it is, holy hell you need to get out more.

Sorry sweets "wear boots and layers" is a to do list - not a bucket list. Bucket lists are for things like sky dive naked. See the difference?? Good now stop posting stupid shit on a "bucket list".

I am also tired of the whole pumpkin spice movement.. Good night nurse. I like a good pumpkin bar as much as the next person but these days everyone is on overload with that shit.

People who can't tell me why their product is LIKE THE BEST THING EVER - umm okay why.. they stumble and say um um it JUST IS. Nope, don't think so. If you can't tell me why your shit is the best, then its simply NOT.

Excuses, plain and simple stop making them. I'd rather hear a stupid reason on why you did or didn't do something, as long as its truthful over some lame made up reason any day. Hell, even "I didn't want to do it" is better than "Well, you see what happened was___________".

Speaking of that, own your own shit - stop blaming others .. OWN IT.  

The phrase "Real Women" - generally used in the context of real woman have ___ not ____. Unless you are referring to a blow up doll, shes a real woman!

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Monday, September 15, 2014

Photo Dump ...

This weekend was pretty laid back.. I darkened my hair - jury is still out on what I think... That color is medium brown by the way... umm hmmm.. The top picture was Friday night, the darker color Saturday morning..

Ran and grabbed dinner at my favorite hot dog place, New York Dawg Pound - they added a store front at the food court at the mall - so that location is really convenient now.

Made homemade jambalaya Saturday, pretty much ate off that the rest of the weekend LOL. I replaced my Travel coffee cup, the old one was looking pretty bad. It is my fault for putting it it the dish washer..

Sunday I relaxed with Raz and watched the Kings Speech on Netflix while just lounging in bed. Finally getting a TV in the bedroom is a sanity saver. The living room TV generally has Dora or Bubble Guppies playing on it since Lil Man and his mom are living with us. Which is fine until the 3rd or 4th hour when it repeats LOL..

Then there is the outfit of the day/progress photo - which doesn't look much different than one I posted about 7 weeks ago.. Simply because I screwed up my back so bad I have not been able to work out, some days even walk, in 7 weeks..

Do not even get me started on the wonders of a memory foam bed.. Its fine in the winter when its cold out. The bed warms up enough with body heat and yet still supports.. In the summer when its hot and humid - it warms up so much that there is no support left and I end up with my back out for 3 months.. That fucking thing is GONE by next Spring..

The last 2 are Monday morning pics, with the final one being my Monday morning spreadsheet pic... Gotta love excel!

Have a Monday!!!

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Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Wednesday's Confessional

I confess:

I hate September - for me its the worst month on the calendar, its slammed full of horrid memories. I see it come around and wish that I could just sleep right through it.  September is the anniversary of bad decisions, losing a lot of loved ones.

September never fails to bring with it the the memory of the final month with my father. Errands I ran for my mom, the time I had to go get adult diapers for my dad, the afternoons spent sitting in the living room while he was in a hospital bed in that very living room so mom could get a few hours out of the house, away from the hospice workers, the medicine schedules, the will "it" be today feeling.

The memory of the late night phone call to rush over and help, my dad had fallen out of bed trying to go look for my mom. The vision of my husband picking my dad up and helping him back to bed.  The tears that memory always brings forth. My once very strong, very proud, very military father having to be picked up and put back into bed.  It did however give me a glimpse of the compassion and strength my husband has in his heart and soul.

The memory of that final day, the sitting in the living room, the haggard breaths my father struggled to take the thought that "this is not how it goes in the movies" and "this is not peaceful". The phrase "he went peacefully" is plain and utter bullshit. The hospice nurse calling in to her manager saying someone else would have to go on to her next stop, that she was sitting with us as Mr. Reynolds was working on leaving today.

Holding his hand as he took his last breaths talking him out of this world and into his next. How in true military fashion down to the end he left at 3:45 pm on the dot. Then sitting there lost in thoughts and memories waiting on the funeral home.

September has simply become the month where a lot of bad shit has happened, it is the anniversary month of losing several people in my life. It's simply the month I would love to just sleep through and wake up when its over.

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Tuesday, September 02, 2014

And With That Summer Was Gone..... and an Explanation...

I can not believe Summer is over already - well the last official weekend of Summer anyhow. My facebook feed is packed with "thank goodness Fall is coming" - one person even put up the official count of 22 days or something like that... BLECK.

No I don't care that Starbucks now has Pumpkin Spice Lattes back or that soon the trees will be turning and the Holiday season is around the corner.. Sorry not sorry I am a tank and flips sorta gal so I dread - just dread colder weather. Two things I like about fall - scarfs - and if I can wear them with a tank and maxi all the better and darker nail polish! Cute boots used to be on this list, but I could NOT find ones I really like the past 2 years so we are in fight.

 Yes, I did hit the dark nail polish already.. Thought I have been known to rock it in July as well. Just when September hits no one looks at you funny.  I will also admit to wearing some new sweats, they are super soft yet not real heavy and were perfect when the thunder storm hit and I got a little chilled.

So I have been MIA for about 5 weeks or so, I had a lot going on, there were a TON of changes going on in my life. My daughter and grandbaby have moved in with D and I. That has been an adjustment. A HUGE adjustment.  So at the moment I am trying to get into a somewhat normal pace.

I also wanted to catch my breath and figure out if I wanted to continue blogging. I have been blogging off and on since 2005 - that is a long fricken time..

In the beginning I think I had 3 readers total so this blog was really just a digital journal for my eyes only. I threw everything on here and censored nothing.  I still don't really censor anything but I do keep in mind when I am posting that I have more than 3 readers now and that tossing everything out there like a WWE match is probably not the best idea. I have also taken some posts down that were published in that particular format.

I came to the conclusion that I like blogging actually and that there may not be a rhyme or reason to what I put up or how and that is fine, its what makes it mine. So what if I do a 2 week stint of random posts or my titles don't match any of my content. Last time I checked I am pretty fricken quirky any way ;-)!

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