Thursday, June 30, 2016

June's Hits and Misses (Makeup & Products)

Poof there goes June. This June was a particularity hot one in KC and I started experimenting with product earlier than usual trying to find THE secret to get my makeup to stay put on my face.

I discovered this gem at the end of last summer and I am still loving it.  First Aids Skin Rescue Mattifying gel - its takes just a little bit and helps keep your foundation in place.

Two foundations I have been going back and forth on are the Cover Girl BB cream for oily skin - which stays matte but is light like a BB cream. The coverage on this is like a medium coverage foundation and it dries to a powder finish.

And the Maybelline Better Skin foundation. Which is a full foundation with awesome coverage and the benefit of salicylic acid for acne prevention.  It also seems to have a better staying power and so far is my favorite of the two.

L'Oreal Pro-Glow 24 hour foundation.. 

One foundation I tried - and I wanted to love, really, really wanted to love - as I am trying to get away from looking so matte and trying to embrace the glow that is on trend right now, - plus side note matte dries you out and makes the skin look older - however I just can't with this after a few hours I look like the bad side of a 70's disco ball in need of retirement.. I'll be passing this one on to one of my drier skinned friends who needs the extra moisture.  This is hard to find right now so I am sure a pass long won't be minded. 

Since I am using less powder these days in an attempt to not look cakey or dried out I need to start with a foundation that isn't a luminous finish. Don't get me wrong this foundation is gorgeous for like the first 3 hours I have it on, after that my skin takes over and it just doesn't stand a chance.

When it comes to setting sprays I had pretty much just given into the fact that the only one that worked for me is UD all nighter at $30 a bottle.  I have tried all the others who horrible results. Then Maybelline came out with Masterfix and I thought ok I will try just one more. I'm glad I did - this straight up gives me the exact results of UD All-Nighter BUT - HUGE BUT its like $12 for the big bottle as opposed to $30.

I bought a few new eyeliners but I am still test driving those so I didn't wear them much yet and don't want to call them a hit or a miss until I play around with them some more.

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Wednesday, June 22, 2016

Your Inner Voice - Silence it or let be Heard?

I saw a quote on Pintrest the other day that I read then dismissed - so much so that I can't even find it now for this post.. Opps. I maybe should have saved it because it has been poking my grey matter for 3 days now.

It said something to the effect of stop silencing your inner voice, because that's who you truly are.  Uh okay - if that is true why is it when I tried to Google that I get 5,320,000 results on HOW to shut your inner voice/critic the hell up? Frankly my inner voice/critic is my dad's voice and I do wish he'd shut up. I know I have blog posts up about missing him, and I do he was my dad, but the damage he inflicted upon me my entire life is still there.

Its in the voice that tells me I can't do something, or I am an idiot for trying. Its the voice in my head that says you look horrible in that, or you are to fat to wear that. Its the voice that says how dare you be bold who do you think you are. Its the voice that says other people are staring at you like a freak for your nose ring and your tattoos.  It is the voice that has manifested an anxiety disorder. A fear of doing anything risky.

So yeah I kinda want that voice to shut the fuck up. That isn't me, that is a man who, frankly is abusing his young daughter. A man who's wife makes excuses to her daughter that its just what he knows. He was raised by an abusive man, his mother took off  when he was three yadda yadda.. Yep all true, BUT he had the choice to break the mold to be different, yet he didn't and now I have an inner voice that screams louder that my own voice creating self doubt and negativity.

Given the number of results returned by Google I venture to say I am not the only one who's inner voice needs changed.  My hope for the future is kids who's inner voice IS one who is their true self.

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Monday, June 20, 2016

The One Where I remember I have a Blog...

Summer is generally when bloggers slow their roll - I however slow mine anymore and I'll be in a coma.. Oops.

Frankly I have been trying to regain my footing with everything that has been going on. A few weeks ago my company reorganized and switched some things around - my job description and my role changed so I am in the process of getting settled back in. Things are going well - I just have some new skills to learn and master.  Basically I took a lateral promotional. I did celebrate the change with some new bling.  I got a journey ankle bracelet - yes they are making a comeback- didn't care though I LOVE anklets..

I had to have some repairs done to my car.. I got those done then 3 days after that driving home I drove through a micro-burst storm and a tree broke as I turned the corner, sending a limb into my car - cracking my windshield and taking out the passenger side mirror. So now I am looking at getting that fixed. 

I have finished parts 2 and 3 of the 6 part Alice's Adventures races. The Cheshire cat is my favorite medal thus far. I can't wait to see part 4, which starts in July. Thew awesome part of these virtual races is that they are a "at your own pace race". Even though those are a 20.4 mile and a 24 mile race I was able to do them in a few miles per day and track it with my fitbit steps. So even though I have not gotten to the gym and done a traditional workout I have been walking daily. Generally broken up into a few laps of the parking lot at work on breaks and at lunch.

My Summer goals are to blog more, read more get my routine re-established at the office and just have a good time this summer. I am trying to learn to balance work and fun again. The past few years my scale is been really tilted toward work.

The fun part of the Summer started last week with the Mackelmoore and Ryan Lewis concert.  I had a freaking blast. I danced for 2 hours. Next weekend I am taking a painting class with a good friend.  I am really looking forward to it. Its a one of those paint and wine places that is really popular right now.  I saw the painting for the class and totally fell in love with it.

I also plan to get my workout routine back on track. Right now I am in a cycle where my chronic fatigue is flaring up so I am to tired to workout, yet working out helps with the CFS. Its really a catch 22. I need to start back at 3 times a week at the gym then build back up to my 5 or 6 days again.

What are you goals for this summer? Plans?

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