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Rosie as a replacement for Bob Barker?? Is CBS smoking crack?

Apparently Bob Barker is endorsing his friend Rosie as a possible replacement for him on his game show. Now as a acquaintance of mine pointed out "why not, shes big, loud and larger than life." And he says there is not much room for politics to be brought into it. Ok point taken. However, after the talk shows and being able to say what she wanted when she wanted as long as it did not violate FCC regulations.

Personally, not that what I think matters one bit, I think the game show would bore her. I feel that she thrived on being controversial and under that making people think. No matter how you feel about Rosie, you have to give her the kudos for being passionate about her views, whether or not you agree.

I don't agree with most of her views on assorted topics, I liked the "Queen of Nice" myself and don't really know what to think of this angry Rosie. Which Rosie is the real Rosie? Or she she a combination of both, and the pendulum has just swung to far to one side at the moment and she needs to find her middle ground.

On the other hand maybe the game show would bring some of the nice back.

Trying to find old friends

On a whim I googled a old friend of mine from my early childhood. I came across several articles which mentioned her. I read about her high school reunion and found some recent schedules for a local school where we (ok mostly she as I was busy moving around the world) grew up.

I also came across several email addresses for her, or at least they could be her. So I shot off a quick email - one bounced back almost instantly. The other appears to be sent - Fingers crossed! If nothing else I did find an email address for her mother, I can always try that one.

Wow it would be so cool to reconnect with her. Its been years since I have had contact with her. I was married to the anti-christ and Peep was a small child. She had just had her first baby and was having a ball being a new mom. Then I left the aforementioned anti-christ and lost contact. Oh the things that have changed since those days. Peep is almost 16 I am remarried and have changed my name.

I hope its her and we reconnect. If for nothing else because we used to be inseparable and have over a decade to catch up on.

NEW PC!!!!

Well the new baby is here. She's a blazing fast machine and already a beloved member of the family. She was delivered June 10th at 11:42 am. We are still getting used to the little things and fine tuning other things. It took me forever to sign on to blogger - something about a cookie issue that I did fix yet blogger was still not a happy camper about it. It is a fluke that I am here and typing this out! We are looking forward to years of enjoyment and entertainment..

A Spring Saturday and some other news

Hot damn spring is here!!!!! I love warmer weather.. it is no secret that I live in the Midwest because my darling husband loves it here. I am a southern girl who does not fair well in the Midwest winters.. *mumble fucking hate snow* So when the weather calms down and the flowers start peeking out, the grass turns green and the warm breezes come to town I am a happy girl..

Today I am just chilling at home, got the windows open its 77 degrees out. The oil burner is going with a cucumber melon scent and I am puttering around the house. Little surfin the web, little cleaning, baked some brownies music is playing on the ol pc.. I am HAPPY!!!

In other news, I spent a few nights ago surfin myspace. I put up a page ages ago then forgot it existed. The other night I had a friend request and remember that it was there so I went looking. I ended up on my high school alumni site and re-discovered an old friend.

How I let 15 years go by without even attempting to reconnect with old friends is beyond me. We had a blast talking last night on the phone and just catching up and walking down memory lane. Looking back high school was pretty much a blast and not the tragic drama it seemed back then LOL.

So readers, a tip from me to you, reconnect with an old friend. Maybe you have their address, phone number or email and once in awhile think about dropping them a line and seeing whats up and just have not done so. I know we are all busy, but stop for 5 minutes and drop them a line. You may be delighted.

Random thoughts and ramblings

Spent the last 3 days on the couch heavily out of it on cold meds.. I hate being sick and I don't do it very well at all. With everything eles going on and my other medical issues the common cold really pisses me off. Nothing fucking helps and if it did they either took it off the market or changed the formula because of the stupid ass meth heads. Fuck you right in the ear meth bitches..

Apparently while I was out of it a huge ruckus erupted with Don Imus - not that I give a shit I never listened to him anyhow. HOWEVER, not that I am condoning what he said, last I checked this was America and you were free to say whatever you wanted no matter how ate up with the dumb ass it was. Its a good thing that not everyone gets fired for the half baked simple remarks they say or the unemployment rate would be sky high. Retail stores alone would be employee-less. I can't tell you the countless remarks that I have heard come out of a retail sales persons mouth that were offensive.

So the baby daddy is Larry.... well DUH. Kudos to Howard though for stepping up and saying that he was on Larry's side and would do whatever it took to keep that freak Virgie away from that precious baby. Shes a nutball. There are reasons Anna wanted nothing to do with her, had not spoken to her in 10 years and called her mommy dearest. And that half sister of hers writing that book to set the record straight? Bitch what do you know? You only had a relationship with her for 2 years in the mid 90's. Shame on you for trying to make a buck off your sister who is not even able to speak up and defend herself. Your mama should have taught you better.

Well thats all that is rambling around in my head at the moment.. Whats in yours?

A new perspective

I couldn't sleep last night. I had gotten more than just a little down after yesterday's events and found myself listening to the music I have on my pc and surfin the net. In my travels I found a website memorial a mother had designed for her son. As I found myself reading the pages and the tributes of a mother, father and friends who had lost someone way too soon without warning. I discovered myself just sobbing in sorrow over a teenage boy I'd never met.

In that moment reading his mothers words I had a realization, no matter how upset I am over the way things are going, the turn of events we are dealing with and will deal with for the rest of our life, I still have my baby. Yes I grieve for certain things that may never be and ideals that have changed, but when its all said and done I have my daughter. Many who have had to deal with this disorder no longer have their child.

So even in the midst of the drama, the fights from hell, the worn out days where I think my giveashitter is broken beyond repair, I will stop, think and say a prayer that at least I have her - it could be so much worse. There will always be the good days and the not so good days, we will even have very very bad days but we at least have them and for that I will always be grateful. And for ever good day that balances several bad ones in a row, I will treasure them and learn to hang on to those days to get us through the tough ones.

I swear I have not fallen off the face of the earth..

I am just insanely busy. There is a lot going on for me both personally and professionally. Learning to balance it all has become a huge challenge.

Professionally things are busy but very good. We are down a few staff members, but have hired a new legal assistant. I am partial as he is a very good friend, but I do think that finally we have a good no make that phenomenal fit in our office. He is a quick learner and not only bright but brilliant.

Personally, not so much. I am still learning to process and deal with everything that is going on in my family. My 15 year old, the first love of my life has finally been diagnosed as bipolar. I say finally but it seems that her doctor has diagnosed her for at least year, however he has just decided to inform us of it. This sends me on a huge tidal wave of emotions. I am pissed, hurt, angry and overwhelmingly sad. If we are to play this "game" it would be fair to have all the play pieces and the rules.

I would like to say that the hesitation to let us in on this nugget of information was to be cautious. Maybe he was waiting to make sure, however my mind screams that this was so very very wrong and even cruel to do this to her and us. This whole time we were told that the issues she was having were not permanent and that she would come off medication. At one point he even attempted to remove her from meds. That was a horrid time. It took just 2 weeks for her to downward spin. In my opinion that was cruel and unnecessary to do to her if you have known all this time she is in fact bipolar and a rapid cycler at that.

The other emotions that I am dealing with in processing this illness is the fact that even though normally life is not fair and not always easy, she will always struggle more than the average person. Not to say that this wondrous child is average by any means, she is an extraordinary young woman. But with everything that shes lived through and dealt with in her short 15 years, why this too? Who the fuck asked you to make her life even harder? Who the hell are you to do this to her? When is enough enough? And finally thanks a fucking lot.