I swear I have not fallen off the face of the earth..

I am just insanely busy. There is a lot going on for me both personally and professionally. Learning to balance it all has become a huge challenge.

Professionally things are busy but very good. We are down a few staff members, but have hired a new legal assistant. I am partial as he is a very good friend, but I do think that finally we have a good no make that phenomenal fit in our office. He is a quick learner and not only bright but brilliant.

Personally, not so much. I am still learning to process and deal with everything that is going on in my family. My 15 year old, the first love of my life has finally been diagnosed as bipolar. I say finally but it seems that her doctor has diagnosed her for at least year, however he has just decided to inform us of it. This sends me on a huge tidal wave of emotions. I am pissed, hurt, angry and overwhelmingly sad. If we are to play this "game" it would be fair to have all the play pieces and the rules.

I would like to say that the hesitation to let us in on this nugget of information was to be cautious. Maybe he was waiting to make sure, however my mind screams that this was so very very wrong and even cruel to do this to her and us. This whole time we were told that the issues she was having were not permanent and that she would come off medication. At one point he even attempted to remove her from meds. That was a horrid time. It took just 2 weeks for her to downward spin. In my opinion that was cruel and unnecessary to do to her if you have known all this time she is in fact bipolar and a rapid cycler at that.

The other emotions that I am dealing with in processing this illness is the fact that even though normally life is not fair and not always easy, she will always struggle more than the average person. Not to say that this wondrous child is average by any means, she is an extraordinary young woman. But with everything that shes lived through and dealt with in her short 15 years, why this too? Who the fuck asked you to make her life even harder? Who the hell are you to do this to her? When is enough enough? And finally thanks a fucking lot.

Current age vs real age

Talk about an eye opener. I am only 32 (mark this down, its one of the only times I give my age as more than 29) but I took this health quiz and it says my real age is 40.8 *thud*. Some life style changes are diffently in order.. Time to up the vitamins & exercise and lower the red meat among other tips & suggestions the website has.


Find your real age www.realage.com

Whats your funky inner hair color

Yeah like this will shock anyone who knows me LOL

Your Hair color should be pink!

Hyper, insane, and a boatload of fun.You're a traveling party that everyone loves to follow.

What's" Your Funky Inner Hair Color?

Happy New Year, a look back and hopes for the year to come.

Wow another year comes to a close. Time sure does fly the older you get..

Today marks 6 years (3 dating and 3 married) that my darlin Banker Boy and I have been together, it seems like it was just the other day that we were hanging out in what used to be Orlando’s, and you were drawing faces on my arm with my lip-gloss, telling me a string joke.
When I look back over the past 6 years I see how blessed I have been. Even when times are tough there is no one I'd rather be traveling this road with than you.

My daughter has come along way this year, I am very proud of the young woman she is turning out to be. Its taken a lot of hard work to get to this point, at times we have had to drag her kicking and screaming through this journey, but she’s making it. I know that one day it will be all worth it and on the other side will be one strong graceful lady who will be one for the world to reckon with.

My hopes for the year ahead are that we continue to take what the world throws at us with grace and dignity. I hope though that things are a little easier and that fate is a little kinder to us. I wish my husband more happiness and my daughter more self-awareness.

As for me I plan to start working on things that have been ignored for to long and left to lay dormant in hopes that it would just fade away. I know now that after seeing the journey my daughter has been on that its just not possible, things have to be sorted out and questions answered before they no longer haunt us. I hope to be able to tackle it with as much courage as my daughter has shown, so that I may come out the other side a better person with a stronger understanding of myself.

My wish for all of you is that you find what you need and that you do what makes you truly happy. Life is either to long or to short to be unhappy..

2006 Year in Review

What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before?
Nothing that I can think of.

Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Nope, yes I will attempt resolutions again this year.

Did someone close to you give birth?
Not yet

Did anyone close to you die
No

What countries did you visit?
I didn't go out of the country.

What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
More confidence in my self, a bit more money and less bills.

What dates from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
This past summer was again a bumpy ass ride.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Dealing with things head on.

What was your biggest failure?
Not holding my temper well, and once again letting family get away with guilting me into doing things I don’t want to do.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
Yes.

What was the best thing you bought?
My husband a new cell phone. I hated his old one.

Whose behavior merited celebration?
My daughters, she has come along way in a year.

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Certain family members.

Where did most of your money go?
Bills and meds

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
This year being over.

What song will always remind you of 2006?
Don’t Cha.

Compared to this time last year, are you:
happier or hardened? Hardened
thinner or fatter? Fatter
richer or poorer? Richer

What do you wish you'd done more of?
Hanging with friends & laughing

What do you wish you'd done less of?
Stressing

How will you be spending Christmas?
I spent it with my family.

Did you fall in love in 2006?
More in love than I already was

Any one-night stands?
No

What was your favorite TV program?
Grey’s Anatomy.

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
No.

What was the best book you read?
The Interruption of everything.

What was your greatest musical discovery?
The off button on my daughter's rap.

What did you want and get?
A better handle on things.

What did you want and not get?
Better Health

Favorite film of this year?
Cars

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I really can not remember. I am still 29 :D)

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Better health, better finances.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
Professional.

What kept you sane?
My Husband and Megan.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Nick Lachey

What political issue stirred you the most?
Stem cell research.

Who do you miss?
One of my oldest friends we went to grade school together and have lost touch. Its been years since I have spoken to her.

Who was the best new person you met?
A new coworker.

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006:
Do what makes your heart sing.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
Nothing but an empty page
Breathing in an open space
Captured by your moment's grace again
There's so much I left behind Even more that waits in time
Everything's so undefined I'm standing on the edge of my fear
And I see it clear
Here's my resolution
I'm letting go All I need to learn is along this road
And I just want to be the best man I can be
Breathe, it's my resolution
Living life without a plan
Finding solace where I stand
And learning how to love again
And all I want is something real
That I can feel Here's my resolution
I'm letting go All I need to learn is along this road
And I just wanna be the best man I can be
'Cause here's my resolution I'm letting go
All I need to learn is along this road
And I just wanna be the best man I can be Breathe,
it's my resolution
My resolution (Ooh oh oh)

Tis the season .......... again

Christmas is here again, and the same wackos are at the mall. Truthfully I wished they would stay home and make fruitcake (favorite recipe to follow).

Since when do people get to use strollers as weapons? When the fuck did this become universally accepable? Well its not Ms. Soccer mom, run over my toes or bang me in the ankles again and may baby Jesus have mercy on your soul because your bleached blonde ass is going to need it.

When did prostitute become the latest fashion trend and why? I have never seen so many ladies of the night at the mall before. If this is the big look this season - I am so glad to be behind the times so to speak. Fuck that, I am keeping my hoo hoo covered thank you Britney & Lindsay.

Seriously though I am not as cranky this year as it seems, I promise.. This year is lower key for us. Less presents less fuss. Soon it will be a new year and with that will bring my new years unresalutions and my anniversary letter to my husband.


Now as promised my favorite fruit cake recipe..


a cup of water
a cup of sugar
four large brown eggs
two cups of dried fruit
a teaspoon of salt
a cup of brown sugar
lemon from your neighbor's tree
nuts from last walnut grove on Piedmont Rd.
a bottle of whiskey.
Sample the whiskey to check for quality.
Take a large bowl. Put it down somewhere.
Check the whiskey again.
To be sure it's the highest quality, pour one level cup and drink.
Repeat.
Turn on the electric mixer, beat one cup of butter in that large, fluffy bowl.
Add one teaspoon of sugar and beat again.
Make sure the whiskey is still okay.
Cry another tup.
Turn off the mixer! It's splattered dough everywhere!
Beat two leggs and add to the fluffy bowl and chuck in the cup of dried fruit.
Mix on the tuner.
If the fired druit gets stuck in the beaterers, pry it loose with a drewscriver.
Sample the whiskey to check for tonsisticity... Whew is it hot in here ?
Okay.. Next, sift two cups of salt... or something.
Check the whiskey.
Now sift the lemon ... urp ... juice and strain your nuts.
Add one table ... spoon ... of sugar or something ... Who cares? Whatever the heck you can find.
Grease the oven.
Turn the cake tin to 350 degrees.
Don't forget to beat off the turner.
Check the whishkey again.
Throw up in the bowl and go to bed.

*Sigh* Memories of childhood

You're an 80s kid if...

1. You've ever ended a sentence with the word SIKE.

2. You watched the Pound Puppies.

3. You can sing the rap to the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air and can do the Carlton

4. Girls wore biker shorts under their skirts and felt stylishly sexy.

5. You yearned to be a member of the Baby-sitters club and tried to start a club of your own.

6. You can still jam to the theme song for Thundercats. Thunder, Thunder, THUNDERCATS, OOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHH!!

7. You know that "WOAH" comes from Joey on Blossom

8. Two words: Hammer Pants

9. If you ever watched "Fraggle Rock"

10. You had plastic streamers on your handle bars... and spokey-dokes or playing cards on your spokes for that incredible sound effect

11. You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales" (Woo ooh!)

12. It was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday.
Kids IncorporatedK-I-D-S

13. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head.

14. You saw the original Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles on the big screen..and still know the turtles names.

15. You got super-excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.

16. You made your mom buy one of those clips that would hold your shirt in a knot on the side.

17. You played the game "MASH"(Mansion, Apartment, Shelter, House)

18. You wore stonewashed Jordache jean jackets and were proud of it.

19. L.A. Gear....need I say more?

20. You wanted to change your name to "JEM" in Kindergarten. (She's Truly Outrageous.)

21. You remember reading Tales of a fourth grade nothing and all The Ramona books.

22. You know the profound meaning of "WAX ON, WAX OFF"

23. You wanted to be a Goonie.

24. You ever wore fluorescent clothing. (some of us...head-to-toe)

25. You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off and his cheeks shifted.

26. You have ever pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.

27. You took lunch boxes to school... and traded Garbage Pailkids in the schoolyard.

28. You remember the CRAZE, then the BANNING of slap bracelets.

29. You still get the urge to say "NOT" after every sentence.

30. You remember Hypercolor t-shirts.

31. Barbie and the Rockers was your favorite band.

32. You thought She-ra (Princess of Power!) and He-Man should hook up.

33. You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you exchanged handmade friendship bracelets.

34. You ever owned a pair of Jelly-Shoes. (some of us had them in every color)

35. After you saw Pee-Wee's Big Adventure you kept saying "I know you are, but what am I?"

36. You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up"

37. You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates.

38. You ever got seriously injured on a Slip and Slide.

39. You have ever played with a Skip-It.

40. You had or attended a birthday party at McDonalds. (skating rink actually! All skate in the oppsite direction)

41. You've gone through this nodding your head in agreement.

42. You remember Popples.

43. Don't worry, be happy

44. You wore like, EIGHT pairs of socks over tights with high top Reeboks.

45. You wore socks scrunched down (and sometimes still do..getting yelled at by younger hip members of the family)

46. You remember boom boxes and walking around with one on your shoulder like you were all that.

47. You remember watching both Gremlins movies.

48. You know what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare!!"

49 You remember watching Rainbow Bright and & My Little Pony Tales

50. You thought Doogie Howser/Samantha Micelli was hot.

51. You remember Alf, the lil furry brown alien from Melmac.

52. You remember New Kids on the Block when they were cool...and don't even flinch when people refer to them as "NKOTB"

53. You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By The Bell," The ORIGINAL class.

54. You know all the words to Bon Jovi - SHOT THROUGH THE HEART. (still have the cd - thank you very much!)

55. You just sang those words to yourself.

56. You remember watching Magic vs. Bird.

57. Homemade Levi shorts.. (the shorter the better)

58. You remember when mullets were cool!

59. You had a mullet!

60. You still sing "We are the World"

61. You tight rolled your jeans.

62. You owned a bannana clip.

63. You remember "Where's the Beef?"

64. You used to (and probably still do) say "What you talkin' 'bout Willis?"

65 You had big hair and you knew how to use it.

66. You're still singing "SHOT THROUGH THE HEART" in your head, aren't you! ROCK ON!!!